CUT OFF, 2019
Audio By: Alex Caldiero
The audio was originally recorded on the Big Mouth Stage at the Utah Arts Festival in 2013. It was quite by accident that I rediscovered this audio file while attempting to make sense of the videos that I had subsequently recorded (This segment was recorded March 15, 2017 at 4:08 PM). As it is with much of what comes from the mouth of The Sonosopher, the full impact is felt, by me at least, long after the ringing stops.
Cut Off (Revised) for the Drag Me To Helloween 2020 Production to be aired on TST TV
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"Why Satan?" You may have thought to yourself. Perhaps assuming this was all "just a phase," or evidence of some residual juvenescent contrarianism. In spite of my go-to rhetorical retort; "Do I look like I'm 'Just Kidding'?" You sluff it off like a vestigial tail. As if to say, "I can't be bothered by the fact that you bother me so." So, positively dismissive, you may have found that you find comfort in trite colloquialisms; "To each their own", "Live and let live", "Well, that's just like, you're opinion", and the like. And yet, it persists.
In exactly the same way that one has trouble understanding what it means to be a product of hegemonic forces embedded withing one's cultural identity without having studied the culture of others; so as to grasp a deeper understanding of the necessity for a hermeneutical approach. One finds that what they claim to believe is nothing more then what they have been spoon-fed. Oftentimes, undigested, and regurgitated, ad nauseam.
Now, as I say to myself, "As you now say to yourself, 'Why Satan?' indeed." Do you wonder wither I'll say, "Why not?"
I will not. Rather, I too will say... "Why Satan?"
Original Artical: Stephenbradfordlong.com
This started as a kind of "Cry for Help" at a time when I wasn't completely sure that I wasn't going to commit suicide. I didn't have a gun, but nobody knew that for certain. Not that I would have preferred a hole in the head to simply walking into traffic or slipping off an edge. I only mention that now becouse it is true that no one knew I didn't have a gun. Does that not seem odd to you? If you are one of those who didn't know for sure that I didn't have a gun then, but did know the situation I was in, then why didn't you do or say anything? Shouldn't you have known? Would it have done any good to know such a thing, considering that you certainly knew I wasn't unable to find an edge? Besides, what could you have done about it anyway? It's not as though I was literally asking for help. Did you know I wasn't able to do that though? The mentality of the truly Suicidal is also one that disassociates from the aspect of self that enjoys the luxury of reflexive thought (i.e. to know you have a problem in the first place.)
If on the other hand you didn't know I didn't have a gun because you didn't know me then disregard the above entirely.
Unless you didn't know me because you didn't know I didn't have a gun. In which case I hope you now know... I AM HAPPY!
I am responsible for maintaining a "healthy" divergent personality disorder through obsessively indulging in cathartic activities.